I feel like...

I have nothing to write. Is this even possible? Am I so shallow? I don’t have anything else to say or make a stupid comment about? My whole life has gone down the drain?
This is misery and I know that I should not be complaining even tho I know I don’t have this right.

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I cannot choose. When it comes to my future, I tend to see my life in 3rd person, just like in a video game. The only thing a wish for, it is to be one of the ‘shoot-em-up’ type. Just to have the chance to vent my spleen on somebody. When it comes to women, I sense a tone of frustration. Like if no one is enough. This shitty situation I went through brought me down so badly and made it almost impossible for me to believe anyone. From now on I won’t give in myself that easily.It ain't cool either. Place your bets ladies and gents.

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I’m unaware. Sometimes it seems like I’m not in the position to keep up with stuff. I’m referring mostly to human behaviour. Gee it is so fucking weird and inexplicable and confusing at times. Note that my sayings above do not support the ones who are about to major in psychology, Fuck Freud, he was just another fag. Bottom line, if he wasnt he wouldn’t have fucked up his own life. (‘In September 1939 he prevailed on his doctor and friend Max Schur to assist him in suicide.’-ohttp://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sigmund_Freud#Last_years) Moreover, people as u probably know tend to be jealous of other people, even when it has to do with siblings. Nobody wants to see others prosper and improve. This person, i.e. us, thinks that nobody has not the ability or the right to be happier, wealthier, more sociable and more powerful than himself. I already told you that we live in a cesspool. Put your middle finger up in the air for those who pretend. They don’t even deserve my spit. Fuck you pathetic pigs. If you find it embarrassing to buy condoms I’ll lend you some.

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I should stop writing.




J.